First post in about a month or so. C'est la vie. I think now is a good time to unload some complaints. I don't care what anybody thinks. If you can't handle it, then you don't deserve my attention.
Honestly, I don't even know what in the hell has been going on this week. It seems that nothing has gone right and nobody has been in a good mood, or even excited to be in my presence lately. I don't know whats happening but I really don't like it. At all. A few weeks ago, everything was fine. Then this week hit and everything decided to change completely. Everybody's hearts and minds have taken a complete turn around and every little bit of anger and hostility is getting sent right back to me. I can't do anything without some kind of backlash. Im not one for sugarcoating anything but all I want is the truth and honesty in everything. That's all I ask for. I'm not a hard person to deal with.
Im tired of people judging who I am, what I do and how I do it. I get it every singe day and people who try to help, only end up making things worse. If you haven't been in my shoes before, then nobody has any right to try and tell me whats best for me. That's just how it is and how it'll always be. Last time I checked, trying to make somebody smile should never be impossible. Lately it has been.
At least music helps. It's the only thing in life that will never turn its back or betray you. It can be trusted and it promises to heal when needed. It can be your best friend. I know its been my best friend.
Speaking of friends, I've been thinking and I've decided that i'm gonna be cutting people off who aren't worth of the "friend" title. Too many people are 2 faced and willing to stick a knife in your back at any given moment and just waiting for the right time to twist the knife. I'm sorry, but my code of morals prevents me from stabbing anybody in the back or screwing people over. I just wont do it. Its shitty to do to people. I treat everybody with respect and I expect the same in return. I dunno. Maybe i'm just screwy in the head. Who knows?
-Gordie
