First post in about a month or so. C'est la vie. I think now is a good time to unload some complaints. I don't care what anybody thinks. If you can't handle it, then you don't deserve my attention.
Honestly, I don't even know what in the hell has been going on this week. It seems that nothing has gone right and nobody has been in a good mood, or even excited to be in my presence lately. I don't know whats happening but I really don't like it. At all. A few weeks ago, everything was fine. Then this week hit and everything decided to change completely. Everybody's hearts and minds have taken a complete turn around and every little bit of anger and hostility is getting sent right back to me. I can't do anything without some kind of backlash. Im not one for sugarcoating anything but all I want is the truth and honesty in everything. That's all I ask for. I'm not a hard person to deal with.
Im tired of people judging who I am, what I do and how I do it. I get it every singe day and people who try to help, only end up making things worse. If you haven't been in my shoes before, then nobody has any right to try and tell me whats best for me. That's just how it is and how it'll always be. Last time I checked, trying to make somebody smile should never be impossible. Lately it has been.
At least music helps. It's the only thing in life that will never turn its back or betray you. It can be trusted and it promises to heal when needed. It can be your best friend. I know its been my best friend.
Speaking of friends, I've been thinking and I've decided that i'm gonna be cutting people off who aren't worth of the "friend" title. Too many people are 2 faced and willing to stick a knife in your back at any given moment and just waiting for the right time to twist the knife. I'm sorry, but my code of morals prevents me from stabbing anybody in the back or screwing people over. I just wont do it. Its shitty to do to people. I treat everybody with respect and I expect the same in return. I dunno. Maybe i'm just screwy in the head. Who knows?
-Gordie
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
It's been about a week or so since I last logged in here. But I figured I had a few very important things go on, so I might as well post it.
Not much has changed in terms of music or work, but major changes in love. All week, I spent a lot of time with a very special girl. Saturday night, at 12:40am, we shared our very special first kiss together. It blew my mind and melted my heart. I've never had a first kiss do that to me before. It was amazing. On Monday night, I asked her to be my girlfriend. I was extremely scared but I knew that it was something that I wanted more than anything in the world, to be with her. She looked at me, smiled and said yes. Ive said it before, but ive got a great feeling about her. About us. I want her to be in my life for a very long time and I hope to make her feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. I wanna be her Superman. Theres just something about her that makes me like her more and more everyday.
I've been listening to a lot of different music lately. More accoustic and piano music. I dunno why, but its just felt right lately. It lifts my mood and just calms me down.
I dont mean for this to be a very short blog, but I kinda ran out of things to get off my chest lol. I shall return, like always.
KJH&KMN 6/5/12 <3
Not much has changed in terms of music or work, but major changes in love. All week, I spent a lot of time with a very special girl. Saturday night, at 12:40am, we shared our very special first kiss together. It blew my mind and melted my heart. I've never had a first kiss do that to me before. It was amazing. On Monday night, I asked her to be my girlfriend. I was extremely scared but I knew that it was something that I wanted more than anything in the world, to be with her. She looked at me, smiled and said yes. Ive said it before, but ive got a great feeling about her. About us. I want her to be in my life for a very long time and I hope to make her feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. I wanna be her Superman. Theres just something about her that makes me like her more and more everyday.
I've been listening to a lot of different music lately. More accoustic and piano music. I dunno why, but its just felt right lately. It lifts my mood and just calms me down.
I dont mean for this to be a very short blog, but I kinda ran out of things to get off my chest lol. I shall return, like always.
KJH&KMN 6/5/12 <3
Friday, June 1, 2012
"All my life, I've been workin' them angels overtime"
No truer words could have ever been said. Living life while cheating death everywhere you look. Having somebody, seen or unseen looking out for you. A guardian angel.
Well, this is the first blog that I have written in a few years, since the ever-so popular Xanga (remember those?). At the time I was pretty young and still green around the edges when it comes to "grown-up life". Maybe I still am? Time will tell. "Roll the Bones"
The best thing about blogging? Throwing out some reflections of life at the time to whomever decides to read into it. Sometimes it may not be pretty, but its always gonna be an adventure.
I guess let me start off with a few important "adventures". Work, love and music. The best trio that could ever be combined in my opinion.
Work: Not much to be honest. I just got out of a very prominent state job, the only downfall was is that it was temporary, thanks to the newly formed state budget. However, I am keeping my head up and putting in applications and being a pest when need-be. Im hoping to find something before the middle of June, sooner the better. I've realized that in my 5+ years of working, I have done a very large amount of different jobs. I have been a cashier, customer service, photographer, salesman, teacher, a pool installer/seller and a "tax man". I guess the large variety will look pretty good on my resume. "All those precious wasted years. Who will pay?"
Love: I could make a blog alone just on this. Ive had a few relationships in the past where things may have been rushed and they kinda fell face first into the dirt. For the longest time, I always thought it was me. But I have came to the conclusion that it's how I look for love that is the issue. After a past breakup, I spent sometime looking inside myself and trying to find exactly what I wanted. I wanted somebody who i'm compatible with, somebody who likes the same things I do, somebody who has no problem smiling and laughing with me, somebody who will love me for exactly who (or what) I am. Well, the search didn't last long. I've been talking to somebody very special the last month or so and I am 100% positive that she is the kinda girl that I've been looking for. She's very down to earth, amazing to talk to, very very beautiful, she doesn't judge me, likes a lot of the same things that I do and she knows exactly how to make me smile. There hasn't been many times that I've had good feelings about relationships before they happen, but I've got an incredibly good feeling about this one. "I believe there's a ghost of a chance that we can find someone to love and make it last..."
Music: Not much going on here either. Being a musician for most of my life, playing music has been the biggest love of my life. Whether or not its my music or somebody else's, making money or not. Its a personal passion of mine and will always be. The only issue is finding other musicians with the same dedication that I do. It seems with the way the economy is lately, music is starting to fade away a bit and scenes are starting to die. It's sad but its always been inevitable. So much emotion goes into anything and everything I play, and I like to portray that in any way possible. Music is always playing in my head, whether its from my ipod or my "internal itunes" thats always on shuffle and is never turned off. "The way the big wheel spins"
Hopefully I haven't made readers bored out of their minds with this. But its always good to get some things off my chest. I will blog again soon. So be prepared.
-Gordie
"Memory strumming at the heart of a moving picture..."
No truer words could have ever been said. Living life while cheating death everywhere you look. Having somebody, seen or unseen looking out for you. A guardian angel.
Well, this is the first blog that I have written in a few years, since the ever-so popular Xanga (remember those?). At the time I was pretty young and still green around the edges when it comes to "grown-up life". Maybe I still am? Time will tell. "Roll the Bones"
The best thing about blogging? Throwing out some reflections of life at the time to whomever decides to read into it. Sometimes it may not be pretty, but its always gonna be an adventure.
I guess let me start off with a few important "adventures". Work, love and music. The best trio that could ever be combined in my opinion.
Work: Not much to be honest. I just got out of a very prominent state job, the only downfall was is that it was temporary, thanks to the newly formed state budget. However, I am keeping my head up and putting in applications and being a pest when need-be. Im hoping to find something before the middle of June, sooner the better. I've realized that in my 5+ years of working, I have done a very large amount of different jobs. I have been a cashier, customer service, photographer, salesman, teacher, a pool installer/seller and a "tax man". I guess the large variety will look pretty good on my resume. "All those precious wasted years. Who will pay?"
Love: I could make a blog alone just on this. Ive had a few relationships in the past where things may have been rushed and they kinda fell face first into the dirt. For the longest time, I always thought it was me. But I have came to the conclusion that it's how I look for love that is the issue. After a past breakup, I spent sometime looking inside myself and trying to find exactly what I wanted. I wanted somebody who i'm compatible with, somebody who likes the same things I do, somebody who has no problem smiling and laughing with me, somebody who will love me for exactly who (or what) I am. Well, the search didn't last long. I've been talking to somebody very special the last month or so and I am 100% positive that she is the kinda girl that I've been looking for. She's very down to earth, amazing to talk to, very very beautiful, she doesn't judge me, likes a lot of the same things that I do and she knows exactly how to make me smile. There hasn't been many times that I've had good feelings about relationships before they happen, but I've got an incredibly good feeling about this one. "I believe there's a ghost of a chance that we can find someone to love and make it last..."
Music: Not much going on here either. Being a musician for most of my life, playing music has been the biggest love of my life. Whether or not its my music or somebody else's, making money or not. Its a personal passion of mine and will always be. The only issue is finding other musicians with the same dedication that I do. It seems with the way the economy is lately, music is starting to fade away a bit and scenes are starting to die. It's sad but its always been inevitable. So much emotion goes into anything and everything I play, and I like to portray that in any way possible. Music is always playing in my head, whether its from my ipod or my "internal itunes" thats always on shuffle and is never turned off. "The way the big wheel spins"
Hopefully I haven't made readers bored out of their minds with this. But its always good to get some things off my chest. I will blog again soon. So be prepared.
-Gordie
"Memory strumming at the heart of a moving picture..."
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